Having a weird day — I feel like all my nerve endings are twitching at the same time. I have been having a tough time over the past couple of days keeping myself together. I am putting together a deposit at workfor axp 12,000. It is taking me about 2 days to get it right. I am having a tough time following stuff. Noise — noise is so loud to me I can’t stand excessive noise– which is great I work at a school ugggg. People keep interupting me and I can’t stand people around me. Actually I feel very very sensitive. Maybe that is it my sences are on high allert and I can’t get them to relax. I am just feeling so out of kilter– I just want to go home curl up on the couch and have a nap with my kitty. Last evening I almost got stuck in Shoppers Drug Mart, clutching a package of nylons unable to get to the front of the store. I was frozen in the back of the store. It took me about 10 minutes to breath and force myself to get out. Last night was Lent services I almost bailed, but my husband made me go, a good thing. But at church realized that I totally forgot a function a friend invited me to and can’t go to now, I feel so upset about that cause this friend wouldn’t have not invited me if it didn’t mean alot to him. Fail.
As for today – I don’t want people to talk to me look at me or have anything to do with me. Everything is so loud in my ears I am ready to freak out.
Deep breaths and think calm thoughts and lots of sighing….
No analysis today- just bitching and whining — sorry
till next time….