Been a week or so since I wrote. Its been a good time. Thanksgiving was last weekend and it was wonderful. I got to spend some time with family and my best friends. I had my son home from college – it was great to spend time with him, joke around, I miss him so much but that is what happens when they get older. They move out and move on. Its Friday night and I am sitting around with my husband listening to some blues and having a little drink to celebrate the week is over. I have been working on some projects at work, and I have almost completed one. That will happen next week then onto the next thing. Everything about this job is new and its been great. I still get a little sad sometimes. I usually feel that way when I drive to work or home. I have been trying to keep my head above water. So far so good – lately
I have been trying little tricks to keep myself from falling into the traps of depression. There are times one can do that. When I feel that sadness coming to sneak up on me I try to keep busy. Read a book, exercise, or cook. I talk myself out of it. When I an feeling sad and my energy starts to zap. I just remind myself that I am tired and if I work out and get all the things that need to be done that day I will feel more tired at night and sleep better. When I am sitting in church I tell myself that I will not let the darkness talk myself out of my Savours love or forgiveness. I keep a diologue of positiveness and try to avoid the darkness that want to surround me. The darkness leaves for a while. It sits in a car across the street watching and waiting trying to decide if it wants to ring the doorbell or sneak in the back door. In mean time I try to keep the doors locked and my eyes upward and fill my heart with light and love. Its like a rollercoaster that you are lifted up and you throw your hands up and scream in joy, before the crash.
I am not trying to make a selfulfilling proficy, it is what happens with depression. Like any illness you have your good days and your bad. Today is a good day, tomorrow well in the words of Jesus tomorrow will have its own trouble, —
till next time…………..