When the battle rages

And the journey gets long

When temptations grip you,

When the world draws you down.

When the devil’s forces press hard,

Fight the good fight of faith.

Though you are tempted to give in and give up the fight

Though you are tempted to run and hide

Though you are tempted to seek shelter and rest

Repent of these thoughts!

The battle is on!

Draw your sword!

Dawn your armour!

Deny yourself!

Take up your cross !

Follow your King.

Not my words, but words I came across in my bible this morning.  My morning started with opening my bible, something I have not done in a long while, and flipping through a bunch of papers I have in the front cover.  I came across two things, first a quote of Romans12:1-2  9-12

Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. ² Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

9-12Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. ¹⁰ Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. ¹¹ Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. ¹² Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer

 

I will start off by saying its hard to fight the good fight with defective equipment.  In the anxiety, the panic, the fight or flight of depression is hard to calm the mind to stand firm in the word of God.  Sometimes hearing, reading the word of God causes conflict with in me raising anxious thoughts and the drive to understand a verse consumes me.  To understand maybe the key to unlock this affliction, it is a mind trick to always be on the lookout for the thing to make me right.  I have always told my kids that when they are upset about a situation, don’t panic make a plan.  Sometimes it is better just to sit and be, I don’t do sit and be well, I fight a constant state of anxiety, second guessing and fear.  I by nature look to make things better for my children, my husband, in any situation.  I am a process thinker.  What I mean by that is, at work I flowchart all processes in the office as per the School Boards policy and procedure to be sure that every situation is handled the same effective way so to result in a consistent manner.  Its good operating principles from a business point of view. I have no process for this illness, I guess this helps keep me in that anxious state. Keeps me from a effective good fight of faith, and keeping my body pure and holy for God.

Thursday morning rambling thoughts.

till next time…………………….