What is reality?  What is time.  A day goes by and a night passes how does that affect the mind, how does that affect life.  I step a step down tonight. The darkness and confusion have set their chairs at my table.  They want to engage in a friendly game.  Like an addict  I am sitting on the fence— wanting to avoid the temptation and wanting to hide away in a small place.  I want to be in a place of peace.  I am tired of the shadow following me. In a place like this  I want to hide, last time I felt this way I wanted to hide in the dark it called me gave me promises and wanted me to come into its peace.   It was not peaceful.  I know better, I know what is peaceful. Darkness’ promises will not do it.  I feel foolishly stronge in this knowledge.  But the darkness and his friend confusion will not give up.  They will decide what other way can we get her???? How you may ask…… a suggestion of time, what is time how is it reliant to what is happening.  Is this an episode yes, mental illness (that phrase is still hard to look at)  My illness has a way of sometimes taking me off track, taking me into a realm that is beyond the norm.  It draws me in and repels me takes me from normal to crazy – – so where do i sit tonight??? on the fence kicking my feet not knowing what do to next no knowing where to go……………

till next time