So I have been in a redefine mood. I was thinking about this last night. I have rearranged the furniture in the house. I have thrown out bags and bags of clothes, things, junk, and papers, that have been cluttering up my house. We pulled up carpet (well we had a leak and it wrecked the carpet) we put in new hard wood, painted my bathroom. Finished refinishing my dinning room table and the hutch. As I think of all the stuff I have done over the past year– I have done alot of stuff! Jeepers!!! I am not as latharjic as I thought! Great!
Since summer I have been stuck on the bible vs from John chapter One. I think stuck on is a bad word for it, obsessed with it. It has been obsessed with me t0o. I have come across this word in so many books, sermons, converstaions, out of the blue, in the past 6 months there is something that I am supposed to glean from it.
The Word Became Flesh
1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.2 He was with God in the beginning. 3 Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. 4 In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. 5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome[a] it.
6 There was a man sent from God whose name was John. 7 He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all might believe. 8 He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light.
9 The true light that gives light to everyone was coming into the world. 10 He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. 11 He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. 12 Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— 13 children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.
14 The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.
15 (John testified concerning him. He cried out, saying, “This is the one I spoke about when I said, ‘He who comes after me has surpassed me because he was before me.’”) 16 Out of his fullness we have all received grace in place of grace already given. 17 For the law was given through Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ. 18 No one has ever seen God, but the one and only Son, who is himself God and[b] is in closest relationship with the Father, has made him known.
First incounter with this verse. In the summer this verse started haunting me, to the point that during a camping trip I cornered my former pastor and we had a huge discussion on it. The discussion then went from the word becoming flesh to the word being as he put it digested with in me as a fight against the depression that I suffer from. He explained that the word- or God’s word became flesh with Jesus. The word can also be thoughts of God, Spirit of God, Knowledge of God. Jesus was there in the beginning when the world was made and God had spoken of this through the prophets. So the word came earth, Jesus came to earth through his birth through Mary.
The word became flesh. A few months ago I was having a bad time and the devil was hammering at me hard. I was close to walking away from the church. How can I say that— and be a strong christian. Well, I am only strong with God. My mind was lieing to me at a time when I was very depressed, that my faith was not going to make me better and I was in such heart pain in a dark hole, that I was unable to think straight. I got through this by holding onto the vs the word became flesh. I was not going to put flesh to the words that the darkness so desperatly wanted me to say. My mantra became ” I will not put flesh to those words” I repeated it over and over, untill the darkness left.
Hope: the vs “In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. 5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.” The darkness has not overcome it. Most of my days I hold this hope. The light shines beyond the darkness and we have hope and protection in the light. I have learned that the darkness is not peace but turmoil and screaming. The light is the place we need to hide in from the darkness, and receive life.
My Nativity. I have adopted these verses as my nativity story. My Christmas story. I am not saying the Nativity did not happen I believe that to be historical fact. This is the nativity from the Holy Spirit point of view. Jesus is apart of God and the Holy Spirit makes know to us what God, Jesus, and Holy Spirit are about and their love and their word. I think this is what is giving me the peace I have been feeling.
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.2 He was with God in the beginning. 3 Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. 4 In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. 5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome[a] it.
For now I will stop here more to come later
Till next time……………..